Sometimes I think I am soo timid and shy. Maybe I thought that I would be more bold after doing this whole “transition” thing. But the truth is, I’m not. I’m still me. And I am finding that is the case for pretty much everything about me. Has transition changed me? On the surface, yes it has, but not in who I am intrinsically.
I relate to people differently now, because I am being more of who I feel like I really am. And that is a breath of fresh air. Sometimes I used to feel a burden because I was aware of how I wasn’t being “real” with people. I think that stems back to my desire to be authentic.
I wonder if I could gather everyone that is a part of my life and was a part of my life, what they would say to that statement: My desire is to be authentic. What kind of reaction would that elicit from people. Like my ex? Would she agree or disagree? I imagine she would disagree. And my mum and dad. I would think that they would disagree too. They would probably believe that they knew the “real me”. Almost like a sense of ownership. And maybe that’s it. Does our perception of who someone is, give us a sense of ownership with that person.
“They are my friend. “They are my son”. “I know who they are.” Can we just let someone be “who they are” without taking a sense of ownership in that knowledge?
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